regen and on...

regeneration was AWESOME this year...

nd honestly... i wasnt going to go ... but thank you SARAH for convincing me to do so hahaha..

i was really blessed by this trip... u know it wasnt just a "Spiritual high"

i really learnd sooo much from it... nd hahaha i know i thought like every guy there was cute... i made sure that i made friends...not "FRRRREEEIIIIEEENNNDDDDSSSSS" which is a hard thing for me hahahaha

but i realized a lot that weekend..

all this time I was sooo hurt by the whole robert leaving me and the whole not being able to find "THAT GUY" that will love me and leila and that i can trust...

but i realized that the kind of guy that i want is a guy that TRUELY loves God and wants to do great things for God because in my future I WANT to do great things for him...

nd the only kind of guy that i can trust is a guy that truely loves God...

in planting seeds(woot woot) we talked about Loving God with all our HEART SOUL MIND and STRENGTH...

wen we really broke it down... i felt bad that i only give God a little bit of love when he loves me even wen i do bad things...

He deserves to be loved in that way ....

we also talked about being lukewarm Christians...

what does that mean??

well there are people who are :

"HOT" for God(people that love God and follow him in ever aspect of their life)

"COLD" for God (people that do not follow God )

"LUKEWARM" for God (people that are  between hot and cold)

nd for the longest time i was a LUKEWARM CHRISTIAN... because even though i knew Gods word... i went to church.... i still wanted to live my way and not the life that he wants us all to live...

for the longest time i would listen kinda... nd some things i would take to heart.... but i still would wanna go out party nd wut not...

it kind of really made me think... do i really want to be that kind of christian???

i mean i think its awful that people say "im christian" or "im catholic" or wutever nd dont live by Gods word??....

if you dont love God wit all ur heart soul mind and strength... nd if ur out there drinking smoking  lusting.. cussing nd doing all this bad stuff.... i dont think that you should be telling other people  "ya im a christian"... because what kind of witness are you giving others??

I dont want to be that lukewarm christian anymore...

God always blesses me... and I really think its time for me to learn to love him with all my heart soul mind and strength...

when i was at regen... durring priase and worship....

i dont know ...

wen ever i used to see other people raise their hands to God i used to think it wuz weird... nd looked funny...

but i did it.. nd i just closed my eyes... raised my hands to the Lord... and sang my heart out to him... i prayed in my head.... i prayed for leila... i prayed for robert... i prayed for me and my future... i prayed for everyone i felt needed prayer...i prayed for people who are strong in the lord... i prayed for each person at regen... I prayed for those that don't know God...

people can try to deny the truth... but the truth is that God is for real...

I like the expample that Pastor Dave gave us in PLANTING SEEDS (woot woot)

let me ask you a few questions..

A golf ball.... where did it come from?

-someone made it

A baseball... where did it come from?

-someone made it OBVIOUSLY

A volleyball...where did it come from?

-someone made it...

A basketball... where did it come from?

-someone made it..

The WORLD... where did it come from?

SOMEONE MADE IT!!!

Everything on the earth was sooo perfectly designed...how could it all have been accidently made??

U know i've always not been into drinking or drugs... cuz its stupid... a stupid thin to do to urself...

obviously if you do those things you dont value urself... because if you loved yourself you would take care of urself... and by doing drugs and stuff... u show just how much you care...

u act stupid... people think its funny wen people act stupid wen they're on stuff... they think its soooo coool and soooo fun to get sooo drunk you cant remember wut happend...

wut are u trying to forget??

why would you not want to remember a part of ur life... life is such a blessing... living is a great thing... you are lucky to even be here on earth.. i know at times it may not seem that way but life is sooo wonderful that i would never want to miss a second of it... if i could i would want to remember every second of my life...

God never gives you anything you can't handle... but its up to you to stay strong and not fall...don't blame God for the negative things that happen in your life... life is life... things happen... its not going to be perfect but you only have one life here on earth... make the best of it... life is too short to waist it getting drunk nd being stupid...

after life its either heaven or hell.. nd y would u want to go to a place of eternal suffering?? y? everyone wants to be happy... so y would you choose a life that could lead you to a place where you wont be....

im really tired so imma just stop nd continue later...

i love regen and everyone there.... i love my small group 22 GYEAAAAA WUT WUT.... TWENTY WUUUUUUTTTTT?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! TWENTY TWOOOOOOOOO

rollin on 22ZZZZ hahaha

i love you girls... u are awesome and even though like i talked wayyy to much im sorry... hahaha i hope that i get to know you better... as years go byeee...

gnite