ok so for a while i forgot to update this thing... probably because where i left off things got really crazy ....
its hard for me think of where to begin...
u know i really dont know if i will ever let anyone see this... probably wen I am 50 years old i'll use this asa refrence for my book.... because all this was writen so fresh nd so heartfelt...
mkay wen i left off leila was only begning to crawl... nd aj wuz an asswhole..,,
let me start with an update on leilani...
this chils is truely remarkable... she is so intelligent... when you look at other children her age the diference is very drastic... this girl is more advanced then children that are a year older then her...she walked wen she was a little over 1 year old. Her first birthday party was a priti big one. It was at grandma nd grandmas house and we went all out... we rented a big princess jumper... big cotton candy machine(which wuz the favotire of everyone) and everything wuz decorated with princess things... her cake had all the disney princess on them and it was so beautiful.... so many people came to see her that day... she got lots of presents and lots of toys that she really enjoyed.... not to mention TONS OF CLOTHES!!!!! lmg i swer the clothes she got still lasted till now nd shes almost two HAHAHA...on that day she wore a snow white out fit and she really does look like snow white.... i wrote a paper for college recently and i compared her features to those of snow white because they have a big resemblance.... she is my little princess after all.....
she has grown lots since then... and her personality shines brighter then any kid out there... she loves to dance... SHE EVEN LEANS LIKE A CHOLO!! lol she tries to booty pop but its ok shes only a bab she doesnt know wut that is... when i tie her hair up in pigg tails... she looks just like boo from the movie monsters inc. Everyone i meet says, " OMG SHE LOOKS JUST LIKE BOO!!" nd im like ya ya so wuts new haha jk... i love it... she also looks like an asian version of pebbles from the flinstones... man she talks SOOOO much right now... she even calls me VALERIE from time to time hahaha...
but wen she wants something she can really put together sentances... and she learns a new word everyday... she knows things i didnt even know she KNEW!!! like all of a sudden... she saw a bug nd she SCREAMMMEEDD nd she "O MY GOSH ITS A BUG!!" lol shes too littlw to say that lol... she knows bad stuff too... like i dropped ice nd then she sed " O SHIT the ice fall" HAHAHHAHAHHA omg... she loves to make silly faces nd make everyone laugh.... she got that from both me and rob no doubt.... shes starting to look more and more like me.... her eyes.... those eyes look just like mine...i compared my baby pictures to hers nd we look like twins LOL... but shes a better version though...
joshua is all grown up too... he talks and we can hld a conversation with each other.... he rats out leila wen shes playing with the toilet or sumthing shes not supposed to...his hair is really long and really curly now... nd i just really love him like he were my own son... leila and josh absoloutely LOOOVVVVEEEEE each other... they go on missions around the house all the time... sometimes in the morning they'll be super sneaky... and wake up without waking ne one else... then josh will open the door to my room nd wake up lei nd they'll just leave nd mess up the house wihtout neone knowing.... how do i know this.??? I CAUGHT THEM IN THE ACT... i pretended like i wuz sleeping... nd then he slowly opend my bedroom door peeked in nd saw i was sleeping... he slowly crawled onto my bed nd went over to leila... then he sat infront of her face nd sed .."goodmorning leila!" nd leila wuld say "mornin Dosh(cuz she cant really pronounce the j)" nd shed smile nd hes smile nd they'd just sort of talk... iono wut they were saying ... but they seemed to understand.... nd then josh would slide off the bed.... and say " come on leila
nd leila would smile the scurry off too lol....
they are truely a lovely lovely couple of cousins... i love josh and lei sooo much .... thats y im going to school for the both of them,.... im not only trying to get my phd in psychology for lei.... i want to be able to support both of them... because i ove them sooo damn much...
if only i could type out the faces they make...... nd the feeling i get wen i see both smiling up at me wen i just wake up.... man i love it... i love them.... they make my life worth living.... even though im only 18 years old.... they've given this 18 year old mom so much drive to succeed nd give them the lives they deserve to live....
i promise u lei and josh.... i will provide for you guys... i will love you guys.... i will be there for u guys till the end of time.... u mite push me away in the future.... but no matter how hard u push i will always be there loving you...
i want to give them a great education... send them to the best schools on te planet... because they deserve it...
leilani is sick today =(.... it wuz super hot all weekend... near 100 degrees... which is kinda weird for cerritos.... i think theres gna be a big earth quake here soon.... 11 people have already died because of this heat... mpstly the elderly...
we are still at war in iraq.... although im not too surei understand y.... i never understood y.... i just kinda accepted it... i guess it doesnt really impact me that we;re at war.... because iono i just hear about it... i dont see it... so as i go on living my everyday life like everythings normal... there are people there dying...nd its still not a reality...
im not sure if im pro war or ant-war/.... i think im in the middle...
hmnnn wut else ... i started colllege...at cerritos college... but u know wut i think thats all fortonight... im getting tired nd am just waiting for alejandro baello III to call me... gnite... nd i'll add more cuz theres so much i need to catch up on...
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